Bereavement does not necessarily get more easy or difficult the more we experience it. It can remain just as painful and devastating. However, we can develop an inner trust, that the pain will lessen with time, and that we can continue to live in the knowledge that we will survive the loss and pain.
Emotional signs of bereavement
- The sensation of bereavement immediately after we learn of the death can be mental, emotional and physical – like an electric shock, combined with feeling sick and breathless. In that moment, which can stretch over days, weeks, even months, which can diminish and return from nowhere, in that moment not much else matters. We do not have room for anything else, mentally or emotionally. We are all consumed by the feeling of being bereft and struggling to comprehend or accept the reality of what has happened.
- We feel denial: ‘This cannot have happened. How? It is impossible.’ In the world of disbelief we can feel isolated and isolate ourselves from others, who seem to move on, and tell us time is a great healer, that we will get over it, that death is part of life. But at that moment, it seems nothing can help; all feels alien.
- We try and make sense of what has happened.
- We may be angry with the person who has died and left us behind. We are angry with others and ourselves.
- We bargain and blame, in an attempt to gain some control of the situation: ‘If only I had… If only he had… Why didn’t I…’
- We feel depressed, numb, lack motivation, and feel overwhelmed. Our energy, emotional and often physical strength is weakened. We feel vulnerable and sensitive.
- Practical issues around funerals or burials and other arrangements can feel overwhelming and cause anxiety. Everything is too much, even our usual routines, and we are afraid the we can no longer cope.
- We miss the other, are regularly confronted with reminders of them (photos, smells, clothing, letters, emails, food, a song, a location, a walk, an argument and so much more depending on the nature of the relationship), especially if we have lived or worked together. Places where we spent a lot of time (e.g., our homes) together are constant reminders of their presence or lack of, and a way of life that has also come to an end.
- Gradually we may start facing up to the reality that the other has died and that we continue living without them. We learn to accept and bear the pain with greater calmness than depression.
Physical signs of bereavement
I have already talked a bit about the initial shock. You may also experience any of the following physical symptoms, which can occur particularly, if the death itself, the way you experienced and the impact it has on your life, is difficult and traumatic.
- Shock and stress reactions, like being on high alert, with stress easily triggered. You may feel jumpy, have a twitchy eye, tense muscles etc.
- Your breathing may change and may become more shallow and laboured. A reduced intake of oxygen can lead to dizziness.
- You may experience chest pain.
- Heightened anxiety, a semi/permanent state of flight or fight, may lead to heart racing, hypersensitivity of the senses (e.g., noise intrusion), stomach churning and constipation, feeling sweaty.
- You may experience tension headaches, difficulty in focusing and holding concentration, and disturbed sleep.
- Your appetite and eating habits may change, which may lead to weight gain or loss.
- Overall you may feel more tired and need more energy than before for your daily routines.
- All this and more can impact your immune system and leave you more vulnerable.
How you can help yourself
Dealing with the emotional and physical aspects of bereavement can be very individual. Some people prefer for a time to avoid reminders of the person and their death. Others create their own meaningful ways of support, rituals, comfort and closeness. None of this is set in stone, and it can change over time.
Here is an emotional self-care. It is important you decide which, if any, of the following is helpful to you. This is not an exhaustive list and you may have your own, very different, ideas. What is important, is that you follow your intuition, and make time for dealing with emotions.
- Visiting a grave or other place of meaning regularly
- Taking a regular walk that would have been shared in the past
- Speaking with the deceased (in our head or out loud)
- Meditate, pray or engage in any other religious or spiritual activities
- Wearing an item that belonged to them (e.g., a ring or watch),
- Taking an item of their clothing to bed, looking at pictures, letters, listening to music and more
- Keep a diary, draw, or be creative in other ways
- Speaking with someone about how you feel: a trusted friend, a counsellor or therapist.
- Identifying activities that help you stay calm and grounded (music, meditation, being quiet etc).
And here’s a physical self-care. Again, this list is not exhaustive, and you may feel that you are better off doing other things. That is fine, as long as you pay attention to your body, and take care.
- For as long as you need, reduce stress, responsibilities and obligations.
- Have plenty of rest.
- Keep an eye on your diet, your alcohol intake if you drink, your smoking if you smoke and any other ways of self-medication and attempts to numb the pain. This will only delay the real grief recovery and may lead to additional physical and emotional complications.
- Have a daily routine.
- Boost your immune system with the right nutrition and the support of other alternative therapies.
- Spend time outside, in nature, and do some moderate exercise, like a walk.
Overall, in cases where we mourn the death of another, the bereavement journey takes at least one year, while we go through various anniversaries or annual events of meaning to us, which we can no longer share with the person who has died.
Having read so far, you may be forgiven for feeling overwhelmed. Is bereavement an impossible mountain to climb and to come down from again? Do not despair. You do not have to remember it all, and this is not intended to be a 10-point list to adhere to, or you fail.
The experience of bereavement will be individual to you.You may not believe it now, but you will know what is best for you, if you allow your inner wisdom some space to guide you.
Try avoid blocking your bereavement process by holding on to negative thoughts. When you notice these thoughts and feelings, then notice them, as a bystander might notice a breeze or storm pass by. We do not expect the storm to stay forever. We may have to do some repairs and some things we love will be destroyed, but we can survive.
Karin Sieger is a British Association for Counselling and Psychotherapy (BACP) registered and accredited psychotherapist and writer based in London. She specialises in supporting people affected by loss, anxiety and life-changing illnesses like cancer. For more information visit KarinSieger.com and her blog, Between Self and Doubt. Karin also writes about emotional and mental health topics on The Huffington Post. You can engage with her on Twitter @KarinSieger
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